Title: Fighting Redemption
Author: Kate McCarthy
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Ryan Kendall is
broken. He understands pain. He knows the hand of violence and the ache of
loss. He knows what it means to fail those who need you. Being broken doesn’t
stop him wanting the one thing he can’t have; Finlay Tanner. Her smile is sweet
and her future bright. She’s the girl he grew up with, the girl he loves, the
girl he protects from the world, and from himself.
At nineteen, Ryan leaves to join the Australian Army. After
years of training he becomes an elite SAS soldier and deploys to the
Afghanistan war. His patrol undertakes the most dangerous missions a soldier
can face. But no matter how far he runs, or how hard he fights, his need for
Finlay won’t let go.
Returning home after six years, one look is all it takes to know
he can’t live without her. But sometimes love isn’t enough to heal what hurts.
Sometimes people like him can’t be fixed, and sometimes people like Finlay
deserve more than what’s left.
This is a story about war and the cost of sacrifice. Where bonds
are formed, and friendships found. Where those who are strong, fall hard. Where
love is let go, heartache is born, and heroes are made. Where one man learns
that the hardest fight of all, is the fight to save himself.
Later that morning after their workout and shower, Jake fell asleep on
the couch. Feeling at a loss with nothing but time on his hands, Ryan wandered
down the hall towards Fin’s room. She was sitting at a little study nook in the
corner, laptop open with one foot resting on her chair. She was wearing a tank
top and a little pair of shorts. Leaning up against the doorframe, he couldn’t
tear his eyes away from those long, delectable legs.
As though sensing his presence, she turned in her chair. He forced his
eyes upwards, catching a sexy flush fill her cheeks at his blatant perusal.
“Morning, Ryan.” She took off her black framed reading glasses and tossed
them on the desk.
“Morning, Fin,” he replied.
Against his better judgement, Ryan pushed away from the door and walked
farther into the room. Fin hadn’t changed at all and neither had his desire for
her. His heart kicked over when she met his eyes. He knew everything he was
feeling right now was written all over him, but he couldn’t seem to shut it
off.
Her eyelids fluttered closed and she whispered, “Why now?”
Ryan took a deep breath. “I don’t know,” he replied honestly.
He shouldn’t still be feeling this way after so many years. Why was he
doing this to her, and to himself? It was better for everyone if he stayed away
like he was supposed to.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have come. I’ll go stay at the barracks.” He
turned to leave.
“Ryan!” she called out. Scrambling out of the chair, she grabbed his arm
as he was halfway out the door.
“Fin,” he warned, looking down at her hand pointedly.
She took a step closer and he breathed her in, her scent like jasmine on
a hot summer’s day. He was surprised when he looked into her eyes and saw anger
burning hotly in their depths.
“Six years, Ryan. Do you know how hurt I was, each day passing by and
getting nothing—not even a note or an email? I didn’t just lose you. I lost my
brother too. Both of you left me, and I was okay with that. I understood that
this was what you needed to do, so I moved on. I built a life that doesn’t
include you. That was what I had to
do.” She paused and raised a shaky hand to cup his cheek. “I’d have given you
my entire heart if you’d only asked, but it’s not yours now. It’s not yours.”
Ryan closed his eyes, agony for losing what was never his rose in his
chest until he felt strangled by it. He placed his hand over hers, holding it
there until she tugged it away.
“You’re right,” Fin told him. “You should stay on the barracks … but I
don’t want you to. Damn you, Ryan,” she whispered fiercely. “I don’t want you
to.”
Ryan used his bulk to crowd her against the wall until there was no room
for her to move. Leaning one hand against the wall, he grabbed her hip with the
other. Her breathing rose rapidly and he leaned in, ducking his head until
their mouths hovered a mere breath apart.
“Why can’t I force myself to leave?” He rested his forehead against hers
and closed his eyes. “I hurt too. For six years I fought every day not to think
of you, and I lost, because every day you were all I could see. You were the
best thing in my life—so sweet and innocent, and so goddamn tempting.” His hand
strayed from her hip and slid down to grip her ass. He swallowed the groan. “I
stayed away so you could move on.”
Kate
McCarthy grew up in a small town outside of Port Macquarie, Australia. Raised
in a house just a short walk to the beach, Kate enjoyed the peaceful, relaxed
atmosphere and friendships that come from being raised in a friendly, small
town area.
She now
resides in Brisbane, Australia, a city in the state of Queensland where she
works as an accountant, along with a sideline wedding cake business and her
writing.
She is
married with two children, has two dogs and house in the suburbs, and a pile of
friends and family dotted all over the country that help keep her sane.
When she’s
not busy running after naughty kids, filthy dogs, crunching numbers, piping
buttercream and writing books, you can find her curled up in bed in the early
hours of the morning reading new books and re-reading old favourites. Her
favourite books are the Black Dagger Brotherhood series by J.R. Ward in which
she longs to eventually join the brotherhood and change her name to Phierce
Mutha.
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