Title: Because of Kian
Author: Sibylla Matilde
Release Date: April 8, 2014
***** Mature Content, Abuse, Sexual Situations, Adult Situations, Strong Language *****
I know I’m twisted. Growing up in a perfectly well-adjusted home, I don’t really have an excuse. But no matter… I realize how messed up I am. And therapy can only do so much.
I pushed my boyfriend to violence, a violence he couldn't control. Sickly, I almost liked it. So I pushed him more. Before long, the pain outweighed the pleasure and the loss I sustained shattered me. So I ran. I’m now a bit shell-shocked harboring a lot of guilt. My boyfriend is now my ex and wants revenge. He wants me to pay for turning him into the monster he’s become. And I still have a deviant yearning that I don’t understand. My own monster inside… my own demon to battle.
I can’t get close to anyone. I can’t give in and scratch that itch. I can’t wreck someone else.
And now there is Kian… my rescuer on a dark, painful night. He sees through my pretense. He tries to pull me from my frightened isolation, to keep me from becoming a victim. He forces me to face my warped desires and shows me that pain doesn’t really have to truly hurt.
He wants to show me a way to serenity. But I am afraid… Will I ruin a good man?
***3.25-3.5 KIAN Stars***
When I first read Sibylla Matilde’s first book, Little Conversations, I was hooked with her writing and I knew I had to read more of her works. I loved her second book In the Firelight and so when I saw she had a new book titled Because of Kian, I knew I had to add this book on my TBR. So when Ms. Matilde offered me a gifted copy, I was so happy to dive right into reading this book.
The story starts off with Brynn Ashton, who ran away from her abusive ex-boyfriend, Evan. She’s living in a new town and has very few friends. One night after exiting a bar, her Evan attacks her but luckily for her, Kian was there to save her. He happened to witness this horrific ordeal and was ready to save and protect Brynn from her attacker. Safe and sound, Kian offers to teach Brynn a private self defense class in which she happily accepts. Brynn right off the bat is deeply attracted to Kian. She feels safe with him. As for Kian, he was attracted to Brynn from the first time he laid eyes on her. He was drawn to her innocence and beauty. As they slowly get to know each other, their relationship moved from friendship to something more. Their sexual chemistry was HOT but Brynn had to put a halt on their fast pace romance . With her insecurities, fears, and ex still lurking around, Kian and her relationship had to face the ultimate test. How far will Brynn push away her chance at happiness and love?
Because of Kian was definitely different than her previous books. This book explores the emotional state of the heroine, Brynn and how that has affected her life when it comes to opening up her heart and love. Kian, the hero in the book was the driving force of the storyline. He made the story in my opinion and without him the storyline would have fell flat. Kian was the protector, the lover, the best friend, and the hero of the book. As much as I loved Kian, I wished I knew more of him and his past. I wanted to know what made him interested in Kinbaku. As for Brynn, I couldn’t connect to her as much as I wanted to. Yes, I was saddened by her emotional well being but her thought process bothered me. There was an element of depth and connection that was missing in the storyline that I felt was a crucial. Don’t get me wrong, I love Kian and Brynn as couple. I knew that they were perfectly matched for each other but Brynn’s decisions were at times frustrating. There were times I wanted to shake her and tell her Kian is not like your ex-boyfriend. He’s different and you already know that so open up to him and let him in. If you already trust him with your body, then trust him with your heart.
Overall, I enjoyed Because of Kian. Ms. Matilde knows how to write a hot steamy scene for sure. Because of Kian had the sexual chemistry down in their storyline but a hot scene can’t be the only thing in the book. Personally, I needed more details of Kian and Brynn’s past and I wanted to know more of Brynn’s relationship with Evan. These missing details and the fast storyline was the missing element from taking this book from good to great.
Sibylla Matilde grew up in the mountain valleys of Southwest Montana exploring the dusty Old West gold country on the back of a horse. She attended a two-room schoolhouse beginning in 1st grade & had the same teacher until she changed schools after 7th. Beginning at about age 12, Sibylla discovered historical romance, feeding off of work of Jude Deveraux & Lisa Kleypas. She loves a book that can make the reader run the gamut of emotions, from the sweet glow of new love to gut-wrenching heartache. She is a true romantic & always has stories floating around in her head, living in a fantasyland until she writes them down to free them.
Music is her emotional trigger. Growing up with a Wagnarian-loving mother, Sibylla was raised to treasure music that digs deep into the psyche, drawing out elation, sorrow, grief, desire. The soundtrack to her life includes many genres spanning centuries. She looooooooves Thirty Seconds to Mars (rather obsessively, actually... but, really, how can you NOT be crazy about this guy!? Jared Leto. Shhh. ) & pimps them out to all her friends through Spotify. She also delights in Met Opera HD broadcasts at her local movie theater & hopes (listening Met?) to someday see Diana Damrau reprise her role as Mozart’s Queen of the Night in Die Zauberflöte. Sibylla lives with her husband and hero who saved her from her own calamitous, young-adult self. He makes her laugh daily, even when things are tough. He's proved to her that love really can heal a shattered soul. In 18 years, they have never had a fight, although argue regularly with their two teenage kids who have, unfortunately, inherited their father’s quick wit (unfortunate as it is a quick wit that Sibylla, herself, definitely does not possess – there is a reason she is a writer & not a stand-up comedian). They live a quiet life with their two weird little rescued Chiweenies. Wait… teenagers & little yap-dogs? OK, maybe not so quiet.